Being Honest

 Here are some pictures taken three weeks ago.  Here is what is known as "steroid facies" meaning a round, puffy face because I was on steroids, oral, for several days each round, plus had a steroid drip at chemo.  This picture was taken the Sunday morning (two days post) after my last chemo session.  I look like my dad (which unfortunately isn't very complimentary...sorry dad, but he doesn't read by my blog, thank goodness).  I have a few hairs on top that never did fall.  No wonder when the Priests came over a couple weeks ago because I didn't feel well enough to go to church and I didn't have on any make-up or wig.  They were very kind and didn't say anything, but boy did their eyes get big when they saw me.  I kind of gasp, too, when I see myself in the mirror.  I have such a long list of makeovers when I get to Heaven that I will need to wear a name tag, as no one will recognize me.

 Here I am with my wig on ready to go to church. 

 Oh, and here are my nails that look like they've been smashed in the door, and that was three weeks ago.  I should take a picture of them now.  They're much worse.  In the interim, I got an infection and have since been on an antibiotic and Bacitracin soak because of the nails.  Now my toenails are affected.  I have been warned that I may lose my anils.  Oh well, seeing as I've lost a breast and my hair, what are a few more body parts?...except that they're really quite tender. 

And here I am at the infusion center getting my port accessed for treatment.  I have a plastic appartus that has been sutured just under my skin with some tubing that runs to my jugular vein.  This port eliminates the need to have an IV placed in my arm, and quite honestly I like the port.  It's so much better than having to fish around for a vein, and I've been told that the Taxol (one of those "BAD" drugs) has pretty much destroyed my arm veins, so thank goodness for the port. 

Okay, these were some honest pictures of me.  Ugh.  I hate the Nelson baggy eyes, which have been extra baggy of late because of the fact that it's so hard to stay hydrated when I don't feel like drinking water.  I need plastic surgery!!!!!